Ok guys, i’ve decided on a new thing…Every Friday i’ll be coming at you with a rant, a ramble or maybe a bundle of positivity, who knows?!
Lately i’ve been feeling stuck. Like I have all these groundbreaking ideas and to do lists to complete and I just can’t seem to get myself to do any of them? It’s almost like i’m living in a bubble watching the world go by. Everyday I want to get up and blog or get up and make some new memories, yet everyday i’ve found myself unwilling to get out of bed and pretty much spending the days hibernating whilst reading.
It’s frustrating because I don’t know whats caused this relapse in my depression, but it’s here and doesn’t seem to be shifting. I’m exhausted.
I’m hoping that returning to university will help restart my mojo, I mean if anything atleast i’ll have to get up and get dressed and go to lectures..which is more than can be said for my current pajama ridden state at 2pm in the afternoon.
I think most of all i’ve been lying to myself about how i’m feeling. That i’m just relaxing before I go back to uni. But that’s not it at all, I don’t feel relaxed, I don’t feel calm. I feel, well honestly kind of lost.
Maybe getting bag into a regular blogging routine will be the start of getting me up and at ’em again.. I hope so, I can’t stand living like this and yet every few months it just kind of creeps up on me.
Until next week, L